Yea~ I am back! Long time din't update my blog. Finally done my course and now start working without any helping from my parents. I promised will earn even more and more for you guys dad~ that is my wishes. Other than that, I was confuse for one thing. Maybe more than that?? Sure for all of us are nervous for our own problem. Is it what we called "human being"? Maybe~ I have no idea. Actually what is my feeling now? I am sorry. I can't even find a word to describe on it. Hmm.. disappointed? Will you? Don't know. From your eyes, I can't get any message. Just like what you said, " I just want a simple relation..including my life now." So, I think I understood the meaning. ARRRR...what are u doing ting????!!!!! You are so...useless? stupid?? or else??
I am back~~ Long time dint update my blog because was had my final exam for last semester. Now is May, time was pass very fast. Now is a new semester again. SienzZZ..now i totally lost my way. I can't get my next step. My future?? I don't know. Useless..YOU ARE SO USELESS!!! I was sad..I don't want waste daddy's money. Got many times i try want to tell them that I hope can quit for my course but then lastly I dint. I scare..and sad when look for their respond. What should I do now???? Who can teach me? I don't know..really don't know..!!
For my relation is quite ok now. Dear is go back and help his daddy at office so will be very busy and no time to accompany me. IS ok because we still can meet on Friday and Saturday. Dear, you must proof to mummy that you are get ready to help daddy. I believe that you can do it. Miss you a lot..Today is Wednesday, still got two days then can meet la. I don't want think much now. Just hope we can happy~ June is coming la. What surprise should you give me?? Can I make a wish? I wish that we are always happy when together. I wish you can get what you want too. No reason and don't want any present because you are my lovely hubby. Then is enough for me. 5 June, I am waiting for you!!!!!!!!!!
Wow..long time didn't updated my blog already nerh because was busy for my assignment and quiz too. Hm..what are we going to talk now?? Actually I was quite happy in this few weeks because i knew something secret from my dear Ivy was about hubby. Keke~~ Felt surprise when knew it. But then now I have a question already wor..hmmm, is it all the word and meaning was took out from your heart 1? I don't have the confident to believe it you know?
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Miss you a lot dear. Anyway, Friday can meet u la~ keke ^^ Even though for you that is a small thing but then for me is not ok? Scare..hm...I don't dare to tell you what i am scare to..Aiks.......
Yesterday went to dear's house dinner with his family. Feeling not bad..but i was moody. I really hope can angry with you but i cant, very hard to angry with you..will you know it? This few days feel like weird, maybe you was busy until your mood also become easy to angry and hot. Sometimes you like suck a kid, really hard to angry you la! But dear, why sometimes I don't know what are thinking..feel useless..i always scare will make you feel very "FAN". Knew that you will bring me to KL on this July and already booked ticket for it, I was very happy..really! Said honestly, I was very gan dong...maybe for you is a little small things but for me this is never be a small thing. Miss you here but you dint find me..feel like you are moody but you wont tell me the reason. Sad~~Yesterday accompany your parents went to market buy ingredient, she was ask me many things..she tot we are quarrel. On that time I don't how to answer her even the real answer is No. 感觉那时候真的好像沉入谷底似的。。dunno..with no reason..Saw that you will always visit her blog and leave some comment but then i think you never do like that for me..izzit this is call "jealous"? lolx..i think so..i care it! I was care it very much..sad..really sad o..
Just finish class now stay at computer lab for doing my assignment. This few weeks dint update my blog because there no reason..maybe busy and moody gua. I feel like cant recognize myself and don't know what i want. Haiz..so useless lea. Chinese New Year is coming on next Sunday, just hope can get many angpau to cover all my school fees. Stress...many things haven work and process it. $$$$$$$$$ i hate u la money!!!Why most of the things need $$$$ one? If I am rich I wont let my parents work so tired, they no need wake up early to prepare the ingredient for their business. Although Chinese New Year they also no need sell the yam pork to earn extra money, my heart was painful u know? Yesterday helped them cut the yam and ready all the ingredient, saw their face was look like tired but have to work hard to earn the money with the reason to pay our school fees. This is love and care for their daughter,heart very very pain..hide in my room and cried myself. I want find him talk but he was busy. This year always unhappy 1..where is my luck? Faster come back here please..i need you!!!
Just finish cleaned table and everything. Now nothing to do, waiting for his message. He said need time to rest so i dint find him. I always wish and pray for him hope can achieve his monthly target, no need be nervous bout his family's things, and also his car..haha!! He is my first boyfriend that like to modify car 1. Sometimes saw him make his car's part until mid-night still don't want sleep, I really felt heart pain de o. Sometimes I really want to angry but when saw his tired face,I bu she de angry already..haha!! Stupid de o..but he never know that, he said i too stick him..really de mar? Say honestly, really sad lea..hm..maybe I really have to stopped to stick with u..izzit like that? Miss u here but i dun dare to find u..aiks..=="!!
Nothing special for today. No homework, no class too..damm boring. Today just knew from him that he want concentrate on his work. Stupid o me! He was so nervous on his work but i keep on disturb him..YOU ARE STUPID LEA TING TING!! Dear, u can do it..must try your best don't simply give up please..i will always be with you..any time as long as you need me..really! Your birthday is coming soon and planning how to give u a big surprise and also celebrate with you, hope can give you a unforgettable birthday. Dear, whole day dint contact with you i really cant pay attention into my class. Feel very 失败 o..promise me don't leave me can??..
Starting my 1st class for today. Felt very boring because all of them skip class and went to 1b to shopping left me and 2 girls at classroom. Say honestly really got a bit sad on that time. 6 subject for this semester..huh, another stress for me again. Daddy just said to me must study hard, do not make any disappointed to them. Haiz..really stress lea. I need your support actually..will you know it? Dear, this few days we seldom message..even a call also become less. Really miss u here..I knew that you are busy and also have many things haven clear but I really hope you know that I will support you even though I cant give any help to you. Felt very useless >"
Tomorrow is gonna go home..miss everything that happened on this two months. Feel very bu she de lea.. specially you..scare something will change between us. Dont know..i dont have confident by myself. Will u heard me? After i go home will u think of me? Will you miss everything that i done for u before? Thanks that u accompany me in this two months dear, miss u a lot here. After this we are seldom meet already but is doesn't mean i will forget u..izzit u will same like me? Hm..feel very scare to think about it. Bad dear, who ask u always said those things to scare me, make me dont have any confident with u. Dear, really miss u o..hm...