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Just finish class now stay at computer lab for doing my assignment. This few weeks dint update my blog because there no reason..maybe busy and moody gua. I feel like cant recognize myself and don't know what i want. Haiz..so useless lea. Chinese New Year is coming on next Sunday, just hope can get many angpau to cover all my school fees. Stress...many things haven work and process it. $$$$$$$$$ i hate u la money!!!Why most of the things need $$$$ one? If I am rich I wont let my parents work so tired, they no need wake up early to prepare the ingredient for their business. Although Chinese New Year they also no need sell the yam pork to earn extra money, my heart was painful u know? Yesterday helped them cut the yam and ready all the ingredient, saw their face was look like tired but have to work hard to earn the money with the reason to pay our school fees. This is love and care for their daughter,heart very very pain..hide in my room and cried myself. I want find him talk but he was busy. This year always unhappy 1..where is my luck? Faster come back here please..i need you!!!

23 Jan

现在的心情真是不懂该怎么描述，好沉重。。
好羡慕她哦。。顿时的我只觉得自己什么也不是， 只是个过路人，只有羡慕的份。。好傻哦
好痛苦。。我不懂能找谁倾诉，那一瞬间自己好像什么都没有似的。。蛮可怜。。哈哈！！！！！！！！
好想发泄。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。

20 Jan

Just finish cleaned table and everything. Now nothing to do, waiting for his message. He said need time to rest so i dint find him. I always wish and pray for him hope can achieve his monthly target, no need be nervous bout his family's things, and also his car..haha!! He is my first boyfriend that like to modify car 1. Sometimes saw him make his car's part until mid-night still don't want sleep, I really felt heart pain de o. Sometimes I really want to angry but when saw his tired face,I bu she de angry already..haha!! Stupid de o..but he never know that, he said i too stick him..really de mar? Say honestly, really sad lea..hm..maybe I really have to stopped to stick with u..izzit like that? Miss u here but i dun dare to find u..aiks..=="!!

17 Jan

i hate...and lazy to care already..y u guys always like that de? why must quarrel? Feel very tired u know???!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

5 jan 2010

Nothing special for today. No homework, no class too..damm boring. Today just knew from him that he want concentrate on his work. Stupid o me! He was so nervous on his work but i keep on disturb him..YOU ARE STUPID LEA TING TING!! Dear, u can do it..must try your best don't simply give up please..i will always be with you..any time as long as you need me..really! Your birthday is coming soon and planning how to give u a big surprise and also celebrate with you, hope can give you a unforgettable birthday. Dear, whole day dint contact with you i really cant pay attention into my class. Feel very 失败 o..promise me don't leave me can??..

4 jan 2010

Starting my 1st class for today. Felt very boring because all of them skip class and went to 1b to shopping left me and 2 girls at classroom. Say honestly really got a bit sad on that time. 6 subject for this semester..huh, another stress for me again. Daddy just said to me must study hard, do not make any disappointed to them. Haiz..really stress lea. I need your support actually..will you know it? Dear, this few days we seldom message..even a call also become less. Really miss u here..I knew that you are busy and also have many things haven clear but I really hope you know that I will support you even though I cant give any help to you. Felt very useless >"

M00dy

GGRrrRrrr.....
whats going on???!!!!
Who can tell me? I want know the answer...
Its very sad..hurt...