17 Jan

i hate...and lazy to care already..y u guys always like that de? why must quarrel? Feel very tired u know???!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

5 jan 2010

Nothing special for today. No homework, no class too..damm boring. Today just knew from him that he want concentrate on his work. Stupid o me! He was so nervous on his work but i keep on disturb him..YOU ARE STUPID LEA TING TING!! Dear, u can do it..must try your best don't simply give up please..i will always be with you..any time as long as you need me..really! Your birthday is coming soon and planning how to give u a big surprise and also celebrate with you, hope can give you a unforgettable birthday. Dear, whole day dint contact with you i really cant pay attention into my class. Feel very 失败 o..promise me don't leave me can??..

4 jan 2010

Starting my 1st class for today. Felt very boring because all of them skip class and went to 1b to shopping left me and 2 girls at classroom. Say honestly really got a bit sad on that time. 6 subject for this semester..huh, another stress for me again. Daddy just said to me must study hard, do not make any disappointed to them. Haiz..really stress lea. I need your support actually..will you know it? Dear, this few days we seldom message..even a call also become less. Really miss u here..I knew that you are busy and also have many things haven clear but I really hope you know that I will support you even though I cant give any help to you. Felt very useless >"

M00dy

GGRrrRrrr.....
whats going on???!!!!
Who can tell me? I want know the answer...
Its very sad..hurt...

Time to go home...@@

Tomorrow is gonna go home..miss everything that happened on this two months. Feel very bu she de lea.. specially you..scare something will change between us. Dont know..i dont have confident by myself. Will u heard me? After i go home will u think of me? Will you miss everything that i done for u before? Thanks that u accompany me in this two months dear, miss u a lot here. After this we are seldom meet already but is doesn't mean i will forget u..izzit u will same like me? Hm..feel very scare to think about it. Bad dear, who ask u always said those things to scare me, make me dont have any confident with u. Dear, really miss u o..hm...

last dec.....

Working working working~~

My 2 months holidays was full with working and take care my dear..

Get my 1st month salary but is not enough to cover my things. Miss daddy mummy and sister..I knew they always worrying me alone at outside but i promise will take care myself and also proof to them what can i do.

Now stay at home take a nap. WUHU~~~just went out with his family and took a nice breakfast then back home lu. Now he was busy to modify his car>>his favourite<<>

Last month he went to Kl because his brother was sick and have to stay at hospital to take a fully body checking and that time he was busy to take care his brother until overnight at hospital. He slept on the table more than slept at hotel..felt very heart pain when I knew from him. After 1 weeks he came back here. He gave me a surprise that make me cant to forget it. Although is a box of love shape chocolate but he took a very funny reaction to give me..haha..very sweet lea..Now i still keep and haven eat..is a good memories between us. Happy~~~

Christmas was coming..dont know how to celebrate lea..he said want bring me go National Park o..haha, very happy lea..i want go o..hope this time really can go because last time my ex also said want bring me go but lastly break promise o...@@

My wish for this year:-

- Daddy and mummy can sweet2 to enjoy their life including my 2 oldest sister and also youngest sister lu..

- Can together celebrate his birthday..is every year o...really hope it...

- My course can be done..pray pray pray~~~

- My friends...pei san, i really hope our friendships can keep it like last time..u are my best friend..i hope u knew it. When u said u are sim tam with me that time i was hurt u know? I knew i was wrong but i really hope u can forgive me...

Lastly...Merry Christmas lu...Muax~~~~~!!!

what i am thinking now??

Actually is nothing happened for today but i keep feel that something will happen lea. Is like my heart very weird, is because of him? Or what? I don't know. Not everything already settle? Now our relationships has been stable? But i cant stop control to thinking those non-sense things, very nervous and stress. Is too many things was surrounding around my brain, work+family+friend and you. I trust you but i don't have my confident to trust myself. Waaa.............what happened to me o? Damm stupid o....huh.....!!!