aGain~

Yea~ I am back! Long time din't update my blog. Finally done my course and now start working without any helping from my parents. I promised will earn even more and more for you guys dad~ that is my wishes. Other than that, I was confuse for one thing. Maybe more than that?? Sure for all of us are nervous for our own problem. Is it what we called "human being"? Maybe~ I have no idea. Actually what is my feeling now? I am sorry. I can't even find a word to describe on it. Hmm.. disappointed? Will you? Don't know. From your eyes, I can't get any message. Just like what you said, " I just want a simple relation..including my life now." So, I think I understood the meaning. ARRRR...what are u doing ting????!!!!! You are so...useless? stupid?? or else??

swEet~

Loves your hug~
Loves your hand when you was holding my hands~
Loves that you said you are always be with me~
Loves you FOREVER my dear ~ NICHOLAS VUN ~

Free period aGain~

SienzZz...
Actually I really can't find a word to describe it. Nervous. Aiks, what am I thinking for??
Want find a friend talk also hard..so FUNNY!! Sad..
huhuhu~

random~ 5 May

I am back~~
Long time dint update my blog because was had my final exam for last semester. Now is May, time was pass very fast. Now is a new semester again. SienzZZ..now i totally lost my way. I can't get my next step. My future?? I don't know. Useless..YOU ARE SO USELESS!!! I was sad..I don't want waste daddy's money. Got many times i try want to tell them that I hope can quit for my course but then lastly I dint. I scare..and sad when look for their respond. What should I do now???? Who can teach me? I don't know..really don't know..!!

For my relation is quite ok now. Dear is go back and help his daddy at office so will be very busy and no time to accompany me. IS ok because we still can meet on Friday and Saturday. Dear, you must proof to mummy that you are get ready to help daddy. I believe that you can do it. Miss you a lot..Today is Wednesday, still got two days then can meet la. I don't want think much now. Just hope we can happy~ June is coming la. What surprise should you give me?? Can I make a wish? I wish that we are always happy when together. I wish you can get what you want too. No reason and don't want any present because you are my lovely hubby. Then is enough for me. 5 June, I am waiting for you!!!!!!!!!!

10 March~

Wow..long time didn't updated my blog already nerh because was busy for my assignment and quiz too. Hm..what are we going to talk now?? Actually I was quite happy in this few weeks because i knew something secret from my dear Ivy was about hubby. Keke~~ Felt surprise when knew it. But then now I have a question already wor..hmmm, is it all the word and meaning was took out from your heart 1? I don't have the confident to believe it you know?

[[
你就如天空似的
一时美好天晴；
一时乌云密布；
让人难以触摸
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Miss you a lot dear. Anyway, Friday can meet u la~ keke ^^
Even though for you that is a small thing but then for me is not ok?
Scare..hm...I don't dare to tell you what i am scare to..Aiks.......

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23 FEB

Special day for today nerh..dear, 4 months lu..keke!! I am glad together with u..miss u a lot, muacks!! Love you ya ^^

Chinese New Year~

Yesterday went to dear's house dinner with his family. Feeling not bad..but i was moody. I really hope can angry with you but i cant, very hard to angry with you..will you know it? This few days feel like weird, maybe you was busy until your mood also become easy to angry and hot. Sometimes you like suck a kid, really hard to angry you la! But dear, why sometimes I don't know what are thinking..feel useless..i always scare will make you feel very "FAN". Knew that you will bring me to KL on this July and already booked ticket for it, I was very happy..really! Said honestly, I was very gan dong...maybe for you is a little small things but for me this is never be a small thing. Miss you here but you dint find me..feel like you are moody but you wont tell me the reason. Sad~~Yesterday accompany your parents went to market buy ingredient, she was ask me many things..she tot we are quarrel. On that time I don't how to answer her even the real answer is No. 感觉那时候真的好像沉入谷底似的。。dunno..with no reason..Saw that you will always visit her blog and leave some comment but then i think you never do like that for me..izzit this is call "jealous"? lolx..i think so..i care it! I was care it very much..sad..really sad o..

030210

Just finish class now stay at computer lab for doing my assignment. This few weeks dint update my blog because there no reason..maybe busy and moody gua. I feel like cant recognize myself and don't know what i want. Haiz..so useless lea. Chinese New Year is coming on next Sunday, just hope can get many angpau to cover all my school fees. Stress...many things haven work and process it. $$$$$$$$$ i hate u la money!!!Why most of the things need $$$$ one? If I am rich I wont let my parents work so tired, they no need wake up early to prepare the ingredient for their business. Although Chinese New Year they also no need sell the yam pork to earn extra money, my heart was painful u know? Yesterday helped them cut the yam and ready all the ingredient, saw their face was look like tired but have to work hard to earn the money with the reason to pay our school fees. This is love and care for their daughter,heart very very pain..hide in my room and cried myself. I want find him talk but he was busy. This year always unhappy 1..where is my luck? Faster come back here please..i need you!!!

23 Jan

现在的心情真是不懂该怎么描述，好沉重。。
好羡慕她哦。。顿时的我只觉得自己什么也不是， 只是个过路人，只有羡慕的份。。好傻哦
好痛苦。。我不懂能找谁倾诉，那一瞬间自己好像什么都没有似的。。蛮可怜。。哈哈！！！！！！！！
好想发泄。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。

20 Jan

Just finish cleaned table and everything. Now nothing to do, waiting for his message. He said need time to rest so i dint find him. I always wish and pray for him hope can achieve his monthly target, no need be nervous bout his family's things, and also his car..haha!! He is my first boyfriend that like to modify car 1. Sometimes saw him make his car's part until mid-night still don't want sleep, I really felt heart pain de o. Sometimes I really want to angry but when saw his tired face,I bu she de angry already..haha!! Stupid de o..but he never know that, he said i too stick him..really de mar? Say honestly, really sad lea..hm..maybe I really have to stopped to stick with u..izzit like that? Miss u here but i dun dare to find u..aiks..=="!!

17 Jan

i hate...and lazy to care already..y u guys always like that de? why must quarrel? Feel very tired u know???!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

5 jan 2010

Nothing special for today. No homework, no class too..damm boring. Today just knew from him that he want concentrate on his work. Stupid o me! He was so nervous on his work but i keep on disturb him..YOU ARE STUPID LEA TING TING!! Dear, u can do it..must try your best don't simply give up please..i will always be with you..any time as long as you need me..really! Your birthday is coming soon and planning how to give u a big surprise and also celebrate with you, hope can give you a unforgettable birthday. Dear, whole day dint contact with you i really cant pay attention into my class. Feel very 失败 o..promise me don't leave me can??..

4 jan 2010

Starting my 1st class for today. Felt very boring because all of them skip class and went to 1b to shopping left me and 2 girls at classroom. Say honestly really got a bit sad on that time. 6 subject for this semester..huh, another stress for me again. Daddy just said to me must study hard, do not make any disappointed to them. Haiz..really stress lea. I need your support actually..will you know it? Dear, this few days we seldom message..even a call also become less. Really miss u here..I knew that you are busy and also have many things haven clear but I really hope you know that I will support you even though I cant give any help to you. Felt very useless >"

M00dy

GGRrrRrrr.....
whats going on???!!!!
Who can tell me? I want know the answer...
Its very sad..hurt...

Time to go home...@@

Tomorrow is gonna go home..miss everything that happened on this two months. Feel very bu she de lea.. specially you..scare something will change between us. Dont know..i dont have confident by myself. Will u heard me? After i go home will u think of me? Will you miss everything that i done for u before? Thanks that u accompany me in this two months dear, miss u a lot here. After this we are seldom meet already but is doesn't mean i will forget u..izzit u will same like me? Hm..feel very scare to think about it. Bad dear, who ask u always said those things to scare me, make me dont have any confident with u. Dear, really miss u o..hm...

last dec.....

Working working working~~

My 2 months holidays was full with working and take care my dear..

Get my 1st month salary but is not enough to cover my things. Miss daddy mummy and sister..I knew they always worrying me alone at outside but i promise will take care myself and also proof to them what can i do.

Now stay at home take a nap. WUHU~~~just went out with his family and took a nice breakfast then back home lu. Now he was busy to modify his car>>his favourite<<>

Last month he went to Kl because his brother was sick and have to stay at hospital to take a fully body checking and that time he was busy to take care his brother until overnight at hospital. He slept on the table more than slept at hotel..felt very heart pain when I knew from him. After 1 weeks he came back here. He gave me a surprise that make me cant to forget it. Although is a box of love shape chocolate but he took a very funny reaction to give me..haha..very sweet lea..Now i still keep and haven eat..is a good memories between us. Happy~~~

Christmas was coming..dont know how to celebrate lea..he said want bring me go National Park o..haha, very happy lea..i want go o..hope this time really can go because last time my ex also said want bring me go but lastly break promise o...@@

My wish for this year:-

- Daddy and mummy can sweet2 to enjoy their life including my 2 oldest sister and also youngest sister lu..

- Can together celebrate his birthday..is every year o...really hope it...

- My course can be done..pray pray pray~~~

- My friends...pei san, i really hope our friendships can keep it like last time..u are my best friend..i hope u knew it. When u said u are sim tam with me that time i was hurt u know? I knew i was wrong but i really hope u can forgive me...

Lastly...Merry Christmas lu...Muax~~~~~!!!

what i am thinking now??

Actually is nothing happened for today but i keep feel that something will happen lea. Is like my heart very weird, is because of him? Or what? I don't know. Not everything already settle? Now our relationships has been stable? But i cant stop control to thinking those non-sense things, very nervous and stress. Is too many things was surrounding around my brain, work+family+friend and you. I trust you but i don't have my confident to trust myself. Waaa.............what happened to me o? Damm stupid o....huh.....!!!

holiday time~~

wooow..done my exam already..start to working at lintas there ^^

Now back to my office, miss all my staff and also my manager - Connie.. Now my position is a sales person and the main job is increase the sales of broadband.

Monday~ is the first day that i started to work. Firstly, i scared that i cannot even to handle all the information about the broadband and also others new plan bacause all the things was keep on changing, compare with last year everythings was difference. From here i only can reliaze that we cannot stopped the step in at the pass because all of that are pass tense, time wont waiting for us, so we must keep on upgrade ourself like what I am doing now. However, i set a target in my job which is everyday must keep at least 5 sales so that i can achieve the goal then also can get extra bonus and commision too.

Tuesday~ haha, not bad for today. I get 5 sales of broadband lea..i was very happy u know? I am the youngest staff but i still can keep my result as well and say honestly compare with other staff (older than me) i was better than them de lea..haha, happy2~~i always remind myself that must hardworking and be steady when i communicate with customers so that can build a good relationship with them then can get their business too, hohoho!!!

Wednesday~ Sick but also is very funny for today. Feel not very well when i woke up this morning, very faint and hot. No wonder la..i fever already..=="!! But i still went to work because i dun skipped my job and also dont want loss my sales($$$) too, even thought he keep ask me rest at home and take a leave but i dont want..haha!! I still can handle myself so i cannot waste my time too but i knew that if he heard i said like that sure will angry 1..hoho!! Back to office, tried to eat some biscuit and get back my energy but lastly i was lose. I ate a panadol from my manager then rest awhile than start my work. Although today i was sick but i still can hit my target,feel very happy lea. First time i meet a customer that she was very kind with me. What that the kind stand for？Today i helped a customer sign up a package and also setting her laptop, at the same time she ask me want drink any coffee or not but i answer that no need, is ok..you know what she say? She said that no no no~~you helped me settle so many problem i should spend u a cup of coffee and i said never mind because this is my responsibility but lastly she order 10 cups of coffee spend all my staff again. Omg!! Haha..so funny lea..

Thursday~ Raining day. Huhu..only get 3 of sales lea.. so charm! Its ok..i can get it back..hehe!! jia you o..^^

Friday~ Which is today lu..quite ok la..hehe! Gambateh!!

exam~~

ar....Omg lo..

Exam lea..aiks, tired...this few weeks just stay at home to do my revision..Although this is only a short sem then included 3 subject but is not easy for all the diploma students lu..specially me!!



1st day is Company Law....Hm..still ok la, wrote around 4 piece of paper..now my head fully with the cases with what section what year what date..which director had been sued..so stress man...huh..maolit=="!!



Second day is International Business...What international business stand for? Izzit already mentioned the word "INTERNATIONAL"?? Thats why lu..many factors, activities, system still playing around my brain lea..arrRR!!! What international trade...direct investment..SWOT analysis..monetary system...organization design...huh..faint~~~ Hm..for this sub, i only know how to do some question o...5 question i only knw 3 question...aiks, u see? charm or not? scare lea..[keep on praying now lu] ><"!!


Third day is Business Communication English.. Is my last day for exam..( which mean today lo..) Hm..damm tired lea..wrote 6 piece A4 paper, is both full page o...in 2 and the half hours..really maolit liao..but is ok for me in this subject..because my writing skills quiet good lu..and have more exprience mar..keke!! Time to charges..no more energy..haha!! but feel more free already..suddenly lost all the stress ^^ but then hope this semester result cn get nice2 o..^^ Hungry now..huhu =="!


Now waiting he fetch me lu..yeah~~happy2!! muax..thanks for ur support ya..i feel very sweet o..and also your song, although is only a chinese chores song^^ but is quiet enough for me..^^ muaxXx!!!!